This past week I have been really taken back by how uncertain our lives our. Nothing is promised to us. We are all blessed to have food to eat each day and a roof over our head but even that is a gift from God. Its not something we are entitled to or deserve it is given to us out of the overflow of His goodness. While I am sure this feeling of uncertainty has a deeper meaning there are a couple instances in the past week that it can be attributed to.
First is what is happening in my family on my Mom's side. My uncle, who I look up to, admire, and is one of my closest friends, is supposed to get married in two weeks in Mexico. Key words....supposed to. While my uncle is an awesome person with a great heart he has a tendency, as we all do, to be a little self-centered, focused more on his own personal gain than those in his life. This has caused some major friction in the relationship between him and his fiance. And while I care greatly for both of them the last thing that I would want for either of them is to force something that might not be right. So, as they take this next week to evaluate and figure out what they both really want my family is left with some uncertainty. Wedding or no wedding?
The second thing carries a bit more weight to it. My dad has a close friend, DK, who has been battling cancer for more than 11 years. On Friday afternoon my dad got a phone call that DK had been admitted to the hospital and was not doing well, we weren't even sure if he would make it through the night. This is always something that we knew could happen. Because of his illness there was a constant uncertainty that one day DK could be here and the next morning he would be gone. But on Friday this uncertainty became a certainty as he went to be with Jesus that night. While I didn't know him as more than an acquaintance my dad and him and grown close and to see someone you love and care about hurting is not easy. And as I was left to sit and reminisce about the many stories he told of DK, I was reminded of the uncertainty of life. Each day is a gift and something that we should not take for granted. Only God knows when our time here on earth is finished and we should choose to live that life out in thankfulness and joy for the one who sacrificed it all for us.
But, in all this uncertainty and turmoil I know of one certainty, God. He is my rock and my firm foundation. Even when everything around me seems to be in flux the His consistent love, mercy and grace is the certainty I stand on.